{"id":513,"date":"2005-11-13T06:15:25","date_gmt":"2005-11-13T06:15:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/127.0.0.1\/wordpress179\/?p=513"},"modified":"2005-11-13T06:15:25","modified_gmt":"2005-11-13T06:15:25","slug":"trance-generation-the-soundshaft","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/thehippy.net\/blog\/trance-generation-the-soundshaft\/","title":{"rendered":"Trance Generation @ The Soundshaft"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Trance<\/a><\/p>\n

Room 1:<\/p>\n

Matt Darey, Graham Gold, John O Callaghan, Ronski Speed, Ehren Stowers, Liquideyes, Matt Lock<\/p>\n

Room 2 (Cheeky People & PreHab):<\/p>\n

Ramsden, Mr Chip b2b DJ Boris, David Irvine b2b Chuck Watts, David Murtagh b2b Gary Optim, Funky Frankie<\/p>\n

www.trancegeneration.co.uk<\/a><\/p>\n

The Soundshaft<\/p>\n

(back entrance of Heaven nightclub)<\/p>\n

Hungerford Lane, London, WC2 <\/p>\n

10pm-7am<\/p>\n

Met Dan and a bunch of his friends\/workmates at The Volunteer. It was Sophie’s last night working there (aww!). I got drunk. It helped to dull the pain caused by my new Doc Marten work shoes that are currently cutting holes in my feet. I’ve got Elastoplast, polypro socks and thick cotton socks on just so I can walk without limping too much!<\/p>\n

\"Dr<\/p>\n

Dan had emailed me earlier in the day about a trance party tonight. I wasn’t too keen on going out but once pissed I was more easily convinced. <\/p>\n

Headed home to remove the killer Docs (Leo has the same model\/size shoe and his fit MUCH better!?!) and managed to enter one of my all-too-common-now depressive states.<\/p>\n

These seem to sneak up on me and suddenly nothing in my life is good, everything is bad. These spells of depression seem worse the happier I was the day before.<\/p>\n

It doesn’t seem to matter how well I’m actually doing in life, my brain just can’t see it, the darkness rolls in and nothing I have or do is worth a pinch of sh1t. <\/p>\n

I get so down I’m thinking of suicide and how much weight would be lifted once I was dead. How nice it would be to rid my brain of all its negativity and self-loathing, clear away all the doubt and worries. <\/p>\n

Click. Blank. Empty. Peace. Like a TV being switched off.<\/p>\n

Of course I’m too proud or too weak to actually do it. Then, of course, I beat myself up about being a pussy for that too! My brain is truly a cnut to me sometimes.. <\/p>\n

Bet you weren’t expecting this self-analysis rubbish when you started reading the post! :S<\/p>\n

After some train and taxi dodging a bunch of us were at Soundshaft: Dan, “Leeds” Paul, Paul’s mate Matt, Matt’s GF and Dan’s workmate Paul.<\/p>\n

It’s now Saturday night and I haven’t actually gone to bed from Friday night yet (40+hrs goin”ard), so I can’t be arsed typing much about the night.. but..<\/p>\n

What I will say is this: I went from being totally, utterly miserable to having one of the best nights out. Ever. <\/p>\n

I’m so glad I ended up going, rather than sitting at home drowning in self-pity, wanting to smash all the “happy” people into gutters. <\/p>\n

Our little posse went nuts, along with the crowd! You guys fscking rock! The music was awesome. The crowd was brilliant and totally into it. Everything was fantastic. Such a change from the state I was in a few hours earlier.<\/p>\n

Dan, you are a total fscking legend and a fantastic mate. I hope you remember most of what I told you because I might’ve been smashed but I know what I said and it all holds true. Without you I reckon I’d have done myself some harm by now. Oh, I’ll have a look at that back wheel when I can \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n

Harsh post, maybe, but I feel better getting some of this crap out. Consequences? I don’t care. Readers, you may relax. Now? I need some sleep.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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